嗨爪记的残骸

跑题了。
接下来来看看我们亲爱的老师们。
我们先来瑞平一下瑞平皇后jokernut（）我的评价是：sb，但喜欢）（其实我在jokernut在我半径10米以内时说过她shabi哈哈）（哦猫猫你还是改不了乱打括号的习惯（））英语老师作为学校里唯一精通西文字母的群体，总感觉还是有些特殊性的，也许没那么多才多艺，也许只需要教授语言知识而对于英语的文化经典没有那么高的要求而显得他们的工作相对简单一些，所以他们也许会显得有些old-fashioned且不太好理解年轻人的想法。而jokernut未免过于严格了，疑似有很多班级并非需做reading notes，并非有如此低的翻译等第，etc., 不过为什么说“但喜欢”呢——我虽然极其讨厌不是A和A+的任何等第，也并没有从jokernut那边拿到过任何有用的A或A+，虽然jokernut对作业和成绩的评判标准并非完全合适，但是我仍然忍不住要去完成她的要求（纯抖m行为，其实我很耐创）。可能自认为在英语方面有所建树，但是一次又一次失败地完成jokernut的任务让我很害怕我，在她眼里，也只是个普普通通的学生罢了（英语方面）。或许在法法（注：初中的英语老师）眼里，我也一样，我不优秀反而平庸，还无法接受平庸的现实，歇斯底里地对着翻译本大喊大叫（？）。我并不能做到阅读次次AP，没有强大的词汇量和语感（有但不多，并非够用，并非并非），没有漂亮的字迹和地道的表达，对英语的“热情”也仅仅是空谈罢。
跑题了。
接下来看看zhz。很细心的老师，但同样，似乎并没能和同学们打成一片，可能上一辈的人都不太能与年轻人同频罢（）至于细心，说难听点很多时候都是白担心。不过我也可以理解，当今，做一个班主任压力是很大的，万一同学出现了一些小差错，班主任也是要负责任的。（虽然我认为这种责任要求纯属是扯淡。）讲课很有风采，算是一针见血或破立结合罢，比如讲香雪的时候对“群山沉默着”的解析之类的，观点有一定的新颖性。建议把对作业的计划落到实处（学习zht），看看我们班有多少人写了新师说，也一定有人没有交家乡文化调查罢，还有随笔本也没发下来！（哦天哪全世界的语文老师都不喜欢批随笔本吗？？）
后面没什么要瑞平的，稍微说说罢。
我也不知道为什么我上课睡觉最多的课竟然一直都是物理课，可能初中是因为渐渐比较松弛然后高中是因为物理课会在下午第一节（）
很讨厌丽娜的声音和说话方式，她的面部构造让我想起了小张。
海艳！神！我以后也想要当这么帅气的化学老师！（）
后面可能是大家比较想看的，我比较叛逆的那一部分。
可恶，男生和女生到底有什么区别啊！为什么百合没事、男同没事、男女恋爱就会被德育处抓啊。要是我是男生的话，说不定就不会有人对我生出感情了，顶多会被可爱的大猫猫说：“你为什么不是女生啊！”不过男生和女生在精神层面究竟又有什么区别呢？人类这种生物真是无聊透顶了。
我不会停止思考，并试图不断得出新的、符合我内心的结论（这就是所谓的自洽吗）最近我在想，或许我的身体和精神是分开的。不过身体是指躯体和感性，而把理性独立出来（？）总之我的自由意志（如果有的话）是不会允许爱这种扯淡的东西随随便便就被定义、被说出来的。然而我的身体与感性对爱的知觉已经无法停下，妄图用爱改变世界。这真是太浅薄太扯淡了。
所以我就是个凡庸至极的人啊。
不过不是特别的又怎么样呢。
刚才说到理性和感性，这让我想到一直想要瑞平的MBTI。MBTI非常sb——“我不认可它的体系”（断章取义于sulf）我觉得一个关键在于它的问题太直接了，让人一眼看穿选哪个选项可以促成E/I或N/S或T/F或P/J的结果，从而人们测得的结果往往不是自己真实的人格，而是自己想要成为的人格（也许所有人格测试都有这个弊端）。另一方面它直接二分，非此即彼（虽然结果上会有占比），非常不爽。鄙人才疏学浅，凭借我不多的认知，我有理由认为与MBTI紧密联系的荣格八维是没有P/J这个选项，甚至没有E/I的。初中时听说的什么Ni+Fe会导向J（瞎说的真忘了狗头保命）也不知道是不是真的。其实比如说T和F也不是完全对立的，（听说对有些人来说Fi催生Ti的产生），不过看来我水平还是很低的那我就不要瑞平了。总之，我不喜欢MBTI。
我现在在附中附近的一处酒店写这个东西。因为后面几天还有化学课，我不想每天早起舟车劳顿，就住到学校附近了。感觉还不如留宿，让父母更省心一点咧。毕竟我也习惯了这住宿的生活，并且越来越不想回家了。我确实越来越叛逆，越来越不乖了。而且时间的流逝也仿佛在我的身上不起了作用——
时间是连续的、稠密的（虽然我数学不好但是就是想到了这两个词），所以时间是完全可以一直浪费的，O，就让它流过吧！
早在暑假的时候，第一天上夏令营我就表明我来附中没有什么想要上进想要求好的目的，而纯纯是来浑水摸鱼的，因此这个学期中大多也以极其放松的态度来面对学校。创设再多的目标，终归时不能如愿的。说，爱生活，不要爱生活的意义，所以我可能是放弃了生活的意义，放弃那些身外之物，放弃那些镜花水月无法到达的未来，也并没有扎根于现实，数着日子今年欢笑复明年。（想起一个评价说，一个现实主义者被现实击败了。那么多“主义”，我也分不清楚啊，也许只知道自己不想要什么：不想要理想主义的积极乐观，不想要存在主义的主动和责任意识……？最近自己也越来越倾向于虚无了，不过这并不是坏事）对于大多数情形，也抱有完全开放和接受的态度，比如jokernut，比如fcho卷子（我仍坚信，如果觉得一个卷子史，那一定是自身实力不足导致的。我还为得到一块石墨牌而高兴咧。所以我也许很耐创罢（））暑假里去日本旅行时，也感到如履平地，没有小时候出去旅行时那种激动和期待了。某位高人评价到，这是新手保护期过了。是啊，初中四年教会我沉默，或许也让我脱去了一层幼稚（虽然底下又是浓厚的幼稚呢……），所以，长大了之后，我也一直要如此沉默、在时间长河中随波逐流吗？

我失恋了

瞎扯
3
Ulysses Chapter I
Summary:
In the morning, Buck Mulligan came out with a bowl, a razor and a mirror and held a religious ceremony. He and Stephen Dedalus lived in a tower at the coast. Stephen recalled his mother’s death, when he didn’t obey her last wished out of his personal beliefs. Then they looked together at the sea.
Reading Response:
Reading Ulysses again
Sorry for not writing much about the passage I read.
I picked up Ulysses again in FDFZ library recently. Before that, about a year earlier, I had finished reading Orlando by Virginia Woolf before I bought Ulysses (English version). I just heard of a writing style: flow-of-consciousness. It sounded appealing to me because I tended to focus on the inside feelings of people, rather than the plot. And I myself am very sentimental and sensitive. For example, I keep analyzing my feelings and thoughts, so I may write a lot of nonsense.
That’s why I was introduced to Ulysses. And picking it up again in the library, I felt younger, when I saw the English words printed in Times New Roman.
I stopped at about chapter 9 long long ago, so I had to start from the beginning. However, I’d like to write about my impressions of the parts I had read now.
James Joyce, the author, is godlike to me.
He filled one ordinary day in Dublin, Ireland, with millions of words and alphabets.
He built up Stephen Dedalus, Leopold Bloom and everything, every detail in the city of Dublin. When I want to write about that happens in my mind, I always simply forget it all. My former thoughts just disappear as if I couldn’t remember anything. But Mr. Joyce did it perfectly. He wrote so much without letting the readers feel empty. He is even able to build up the feelings and thinking patterns for different characters. He just lets the language flow.
And in the first chapter we see a joyful Buck and a moody Stephen. Through the language of English the personalities seem even more vivid. It’s possibly very hard to translate this book into Chinese. Buck is joyful but considered vulgar. Stephen is moody and he is a teacher and scholar. The contrast between them is very natural. Liu Cixin described in The Three-body Problem when Luoji created a female character and became charmed by her: “It’s like she is out of your control, and you can only follow her like a peeper, recording her every move.” Joyce is an expert at this.
When I am soaked into Ulysses, I can temporarily be focused and separated from the outside world, living only for myself. One day I can finish reading it, perhaps.

October
1
Ulysses Chapter 4
Summary:
This chapter describes Leopold Bloom’s morning. He went outside to buy some food, made a snack for himself and his wife Molly, and read letters and newspapers. His journey was full of interesting details, like he once passed by a school and heard students spelling words aloud, he explained a difficult word to Molly, and so on.
Reading Response:
This chapter is relatively easier to read compared to the whole book, because the main plots and the expressions are quite simple. It is generally easy to follow Bloom’s footprint as he wanders.
The flow-of-consciousness of Bloom is more than just descriptions of his feelings. It can also reflect his surroundings. For example, Bloom is Jewish. Jewish people are often looked down upon by Europeans. In the book there is a sentence “A mother watches me from her doorway and she calls her children home in their dark language.” Showing a mother’s unwillingness to let her children see a Jew. Antisemitism exists in some characters in this book, and the author is opposed to such narrow and conservative views which occurs in his motherland, Ireland. He seeks freedom and liberation in the historical context of British colonization in Ireland, not only in a political way, but also by revealing the nation’s chronic illnesses in social ideology (which has been affected by bias and prejudiced originating from the UK and the European continent). Bloom, as a Jewish person, shows strong respect and nostalgia for the lost land of his country. He thought, “The cities of the plain: Sodom, Gomorrah, Edom. All dead names, a dead sea in a dead land, grey and old. It bore the oldest, the first race. The oldest people wandered far away all the earth, captivity to captivity, multiplying, dying, being born everywhere.” The Jews miss their country, while Europe doesn’t welcome them. By battering Antisemitism, the author criticizes Ireland’s mental paralysis and the narrow views in Europe. Therefore, Ulysses is not a book only filled with recordings of the characters. It also reflects the author’s seek for liberty and liberation.
From this chapter, when Leopold Bloom first showed up, we can feel that Bloom is just an ordinary citizen. He was busy with eating, entertaining himself and looking after his family members. This made him seem familiar to us. Bloom was not a hero, but I think the deepest secrets of Human lies in our heads: both the primitive, vague feelings and coherent, rational thinking. When asked by Molly about a Greek word (“metempsychosis”), Bloom first recognized its pronunciation, (he said “met him what?”) and then searched his mind for an explanation (he thought, “reincarnation: that’s the word!”). So from the process of thinking, we can reflect on ourselves and enter the realm of consciousness of the characters to touchthe pulse of the era.

把这个楼里爪的数据洗出来喂给了deepseek，然后……



数据见附件（话说为什么这个站不让传txt？？）

水是剧毒的 发表于 2025-2-3 14:22
把这个楼里爪的数据洗出来喂给了deepseek，然后……

这是我得到的结果（大笑）

（把脸埋在桌子里）对不起大家一上网就看到我这个幼稚自大的sb在吵闹对不起大家
想割手好想割手啊啊啊啊


我真的失恋了 好痛啊

爪和作文的爱恨情仇

小学时：
母亲给爪爪改过的：B
爪爪瞎写的：A+
母亲在爪爪的作文纸上批注修改甚至细化到每一个词语和语言错误
语文老师属实不长眼睛

初中：
作文：钢琴钢琴钢琴钢琴钢琴钢琴钢琴钢琴
随笔：冗长的自我安慰
发随笔本时：如果我没被发到那我就是范文嘻嘻 如果我被发到了那么就说明我写得很烂 呜呜我要把随笔本撕了

高中：
煞笔爪爪认为自己在写意识流：60
第一次写议论文：55
碰到擅长的话题了（MBTI）：58
正着来反着来说说刻奇：60（？？？）
我说人类没有自由，人类需要睡觉：老师看不懂
我觉得我写得很好：47
放假了
构思训练：
A、审题：材料主问题，文字依据，审题陷阱，中心观点，窃以为
B、概念界定（以下要素至少写二、三点）概念内涵，概念外延，概念特征，概念辨析
C、归因分析（以下要素至少写二、三点）主问题归因，主观原因，客观原因，归因方法，归因逻辑
D、利弊分析：利弊参照点（人性发展角度，我与世界关系角度，现代文化多元角度），价值分析，后果分析
E、本质神话：本质参照点（感性与理性，人的异化与自由，人生境界）由此及彼，由彼及此
F、辩证分析：举反概念，推反概念，内在统一
G、素材组织：雅斯贝斯，巴赫金，马克斯韦伯……
题目：有人认为，随便选一句话，在前面加上“有人认为”，在后面加上“也有人认为不尽如此，你怎么看？”，就可以构成一个作文题；也有人认为不尽如此，你怎么看？
高一上学期的作文讲评：现代社会，归谬论证，举例论证，对比论证，不要以叙代议！，详略得当，有层次，原因递！进！，古今分类，自由意志，原子化社会，狂欢理论，技术与人性
一上课就睡觉，导致完全不会写
老师说：你在高考时至少可以写到62、63
我：试图用自然的语言和第一印象的思维解释作文题
老师：47
新世纪八股文，评价是和某些人眼中的道法书一样不说人话

我发现了一个没写完的东西 创作时间2022-06-17
SHUT UP, MR SEA GULL

Betty: So, where are you going?

Jack: I'm going to the dock later to order some French fries.

Betty: No, you misunderstood…I mean, what is the ultimate goal of your life?

Jack: Going to the dock and ordering some French fries. That's what we sea gulls do. Would you like some?

Betty: No, thank you. I understand. Goodbye.

Jack: Hey, where are you going? Don't leave me!

Betty: Wherever I'm going, I'm not ordering French fries. You have my words.

Jack: Stop! Betty! Listen to me! We sea gulls aren't the kind to have dreams. You see those people down there? They are “humans”, they are those in the world who have the duty to chase their dreams, to fly beyond the sky and dig underneath the ground….

Betty: Don't talk anymore. I don't want to listen! Their ships crack and oil leak into the ocean. Our friends are dead because of it! And no one said a sea gull must order French fries.

Jack: We sea gulls don't need a philosopher! Betty! Just come with me, and marry me, and we'll have baby gulls, and we sea gulls will never die out!

Betty: It's is nothing to do with extinction, Jack, I will marry a male who is willing to stop ordering French fries same as me. Stop dreaming, Jack. I won't marry you. And I don't even want to say goodbye to you.

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AT THE DOCK

Peter: Jack, what's wrong?

Jack: Betty broke up with me.

Peter: No wonder.

Jack: I know I'm a loser. But Betty, Betty told me she's never going to order French fries any longer.

Peter: Pfft, She's sick. She's still a beauty.

Jack: I'm worried about her!

Peter: If she's an ugly widow I'll be so willing to kill her.

Emma: Hey, hi, what are you talking about?

(Emma is Peter's GF)

Peter: Oh, darling, you know Betty?

Emma: Of course I know her! She's got the best feathers in the world! And she's attracting loads of boys….Oh, Jack, I thought you were chasing her?

Jack: And she deserted me. She's crazy and she's sick. I want her back and marry her.

Emma: Oh, what happened?

Peter: She's mad, she gives up ordering French fries.

Emma: Oh my guld (=gull+god),  she'll starve and die!

Jack: And now I've seen through her. Her beautiful feathers are meaningless as long as she's mad.

Bill: What? Who's mad?

Jack: My ex, Betty.

Emma: She hates French fries. That's hilarious.

Bill: That's ridiculous! She shan't be counted as a part of us….

Tom: Indeed.

Maria: She's a traitor.

(Tom and Maria are a couple and are very good at ordering French fries. Therefore, they are respected by the gulls)

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BETTY'S JOURNEY

Betty met a pet cat at a beach. He was lying beside his owner, who was eating French fries.

Betty saw and smelt the fries. She felt hungry. But she promised that she'd never order them. She decided to chat with the cat. He was licking himself.

Betty: Hi, my name is Betty.

Owner: Shoo, shoo, sea gull, away from my fries!

Betty knows, this is what Jack called “human” who had responsibility to chase dreams. However this person in front of her seemed to be enjoying having a rest and doing nothing. She went aside, looking at the cat. He stopped and said:

Karl: Hello, I'm Karl. Why don't you eat fries?

Betty: I…Your owner stopped me.

Karl: Most sea gulls I met attack my owner directly. Then I'll stand out and protect him. You see, I'm big and strong. But why didn't you do that?

Betty: I….May I ask you a few questions first?

Karl felt happy facing such a wise sea gull, which is quite different from those aggressive ones.

Karl: Sure.

Betty: What is the ultimate goal of your life?

Karl: Seriously?

Betty: I'm not joking.

Karl: Well, I intend to eat fried fish for my entire life. (Betty: …) But I want to make my owner and myself happy. My owner taught me a few tricks. I can shake hands, roll over and say hello. I gain more fried fish by doing that. And my owner is happy and spends more time playing with me.

Betty: I'm not kept as a pet, not like you, I don't know whether I'm luckier than you. I… I just want to leave my home, I DON'T know where to go!

Karl: Oh Betty. Maybe you should go to the dock and order some French fries. But you shouldn't. Live on. Keep your own words. It doesn't matter. Now, go to the sea and catch some fish.

Betty: I….

Karl: What?

Betty: …understand.

…

"Look, a sea gull."

“What a beautiful one!”

“It's valuable.”

shot

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Where am I？

HUMAN LIFE

Betty: What are you going to do after school?

Ellie: I would go to the mall and have some afternoon tea. Then I'd fetch a blind box. I heard there is a new Molly series and they are very cute. I want one.

Betty: Where do you get your money?

Ellie: From my grandparents at the Spring Festival.

Betty: You mean red envelopes? I gave all that money to my parents…

Ellie: I don't understand a school wiz's life.

Betty: …

lunch break

Betty: Ellie, you know? That son of a b**** from class 1 came to disturb me again.

Ellie: …

Ms C: Betty, what did you say? Behave yourself! You are a GIRL!

Betty (think): Oh s***, I want to kill Ms C! I want to kill everyone in my class, especially Helen and Ms C! And Jay, and Linda, and Meek, and…I shouldn't have said those words.

Betty: I'm sorry, Ms C.

That day, after school, Ellie, Cherry and Candy and those, ugh, girls, went to the mall and enjoyed themselves. I went home with Helen, because we live close to each other, but my mother hates her dishonesty, and so do I. She is good at studying, and making teachers happy. I am also good at studying, even better than her, but I always make teachers angry. I was rebellious and quick-tempered. But, whatever happens, I'm going to study on, and study well. I don't know what the ultimate goal of my life really is, I just want to get rid of my primary school mates, and maybe enter a better school like HY. It'll be very hard for me, so I must study hard. I'm not going to order French fries.

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THE LAST SCHOOL TRIP

Students: Oh, chips, hey hey hey, I'll take it.

Betty:….(don't argue with bitches)

“当我撕下笔记本中最后一页纸

当我放下心中那把道德做的尺

当我不再相信生而被赋予的使命

当我发现理想渺无声息的死……”

Helen: Oh my god, what song are you listening, Betty?

Betty: (switch to 平凡之路) I'm listening to 平凡之路.

Helen: No you aren't. (switch back) This song is so depressing, it'll make you upset, why'd you listen to it?! You should be healthy and optimistic…

Betty: WHY do you disturb me when I am listening to songs!

Helen (loudly): OH, WHAT DEPRESSING SONG BETTY IS LISTENING TO!

Ms C: ?! Betty, give your MP3 player to me.

(Helen gave it to Ms C)

Ms C: What? “leave my body to the universe to get away from human's sin”? What sin is it? Did we torture you? See, we are so kind and…

Betty: I want to defend myself. Firstly, choosing songs to listen is our own rights…

Ms C: But you are just a child! This kind of song shouldn't have been published…

Betty: Please don't cut me, Ms C. I think you should finish listening to this song, then evaluate it. Helen just straightly took my property----my MP3 player----away from me!

Helen: The fact was, Ms C, that Betty tried to hide that she was listening to such a depressing song. When I showed interest in the songs, she switched the MP3 player to 平凡之路. You can see, she was lying to me.

Ms C: Betty, we taught you to be honest.

Betty: Oh please stop! Why'd you listen to that false and fake idiot's empty words instead of my reasonable explanations!

Ms C: You insulted your classmates. I warn you.

Betty: She is worth insulting! I think you even lose your basic ration, Ms C. And being disturbed for so many times, I'm going to continue my reasoning. Ms C and Helen, I think you are not respecting me when I'm talking. I strongly suggest you listen to this song first. It said: 当全民都参与着粉饰太平. Do you think Helen was just not wanting me to get depressed? No, she wasn't. By the way, it is never necessary for us to be optimistic every minute and every second. Beneath the skin of happiness, evilness and dishonesty are the bones. Helen is a guilty person. I clearly remember when we were having Art class when we are in Grade 3, she drew a picture of the naked and dead Arts teacher. The teacher saw her and criticized her. And she mumbled, “I want to kill Ms C.” I was sitting beside her so I heard it very clearly. The teacher asked her what she said. She answered, “I like the lessons Ms C taught.” Later, when I was crying for this matter, Helen came and told me crying on such a cold winter day will make my skin rough. Oh damn, why shall I care for my skin when a guilty student hadn't been punished! But I said nothing. I tolerated one and another evil things she did. But now that we are all going to graduate and say goodbye, I have nothing to be shame for. Some students in this bus hang out with friends in the mall instead of do homework after school. Some students wrote “I played PUBG at my birthday” in their English composition. Some students are bullied by others just because their names sounds like “pig”.  Why don't you punish them? Oh, I see, because they are all good at pleasing you, but they are still children, like you once said.

不儿，这又是什么




2035年12月，虚拟现实技术领域巨头公司Cool Fantasy（酷梦）研发出最新的脑机接口式VR套装。

两年前，1号样机在大实验室完成了第一次人体试运行。几乎参加这个项目的所有人都在现场或通过视屏影像注视着椅子上的被测者A，然而这次试运行对外界完全保密；十多名技术员在后台监视着他的大脑活动。当被测者A把两个蓝牙耳机大小的装置取下时，他靠在椅背上，揉了揉眼睛。

“你感觉怎么样？”技术员A问道。

“真的，真的感觉就像一场梦，我想的没错……啊不，我完全想错了……”被测者A显得有点语无伦次。“像我儿子被我叫起床一样……呵呵，他年纪也不大。”旁观者技术员B对技术员C说。

C悄悄回答：“我不这么觉得……”

“我们得到隔壁房间去了。”技术员A对被测者A说。

Ludwig Wittgenstein once posited that if we spoke a different language, we would perceive a somewhat different world. This statement reflects a deterministic view of human cognition. For the heptapods, however, language and the perception of the world exist in a simultaneous, intertwined way.
Anyway, language acquisition is one central theme of this novel. Louise first established basic vocabulary bank with the heptapods, then explored their grammar and syntactic system, and finally understood their semasiographic language. Throughout this process, communication with the native speakers is most important. Without it, the cognitive patterns within the language cannot be authentically acquired. Nowadays, artificial intelligence chatbots are also learning human natural language, and they appear to be performing well. But their language learning is driven by vast amounts of data, and they essentially analyze the probability of the following words using algorithms, which means they cannot understand the language itself. That’s why living things differ from digital programs.
Influenced by the semagrams, Louise gained the ability to perceive past, present and future at the same time, just like light that “knows” its route from the moment it sets off. However, the physical explanation of Fermat’s Principle reveals that while light can travel in any direction, it is only along the real path that its possibility is not zero. Therefore the novel’s theme cannot be interpreted literally as “Louise took great courage to face the tragic future that she had perceived”. Instead, the novel suggests that there is exactly one destiny for the world--the reality we currently inhabit, or the “real path” we are on.
The contrast between humans and the heptapods highlights that humans are “sharp” creatures. Our languages and minds function like one-way arrows, and our thoughts, from philosophy to physics, are linear. This linearity, I believe, is what makes us vulnerable and chaotic. A failure in the logical chain will disrupt the entire reasoning process. We keep arguing and quarreling, because our sharpness always splits things apart--male and female, freedom and oppression, animal welfare and animal rights, etc. But heptapods are round, much like their symmetrical bodies. I guess their world is far more peaceful.
However, recognizing our sharpness and the chaos it brings doesn’t mean we should burnish ourselves round and give in to fate. Just because the future is unknown, our present choices are what grant us freedom and shape our destiny.